26 years of wonders

but..but..but..it meant the world to me…

was everything said not real and stuff

•  eat wheat cereal
• shave
• exercise
• quit smoking cigarettes
• be bored

that coffee was a little cold

strangely I decided to deactivate my facebook coz I was on there too much,quite frankly more than when I started and I have a long distance bf who i heart alot. :)

He’s busy,not myself,more mature( no Im not) and younger( im going to die sooner,dude) he’s going to be finishing Pro-wrestlers Vs. Zombies (a movie I don’t mind seeing) on May 11th and  later he’ll be off to France for Cannes…maybe he’ll find a nice sultry frenchman who’ll want to marry him,he’ll have lots of francs and I’ll still be here in this wretched town and country. I’m bored and depressed as usual but if he still hearts me,hopefully he’ll be fine with all his past

and all I can say to this is UGHHHHH!

Im hungry and bored

but mostly hungry and wondering how some people in other countries are already asleep at this time 

its raining in chicago and the whole state is like flooded and now I’m wishing for sun and flowers

I was checking my basement and found a teeny leak coming from the wall,I poked at the hole and makes it bigger

My reality is covered in the seating of the throne

When the sun arose I awoke and the snake poisoned my flesh and the fire sunk in your eyes

I suppose I’ll grow old alone to be living on my own but within the skies

My sanity is unknown whether my weary bones fall behind the lines

Despising all the normals causing harm to those that are known

Within bliss I chose to be inside

Oh where have you gone?

Oh why child, do you want to be alone?

Oh where can you call home?

Oh can you be feel love yet?

I waited with baited breath for the stroke of midnight I arose from the depths

To conquer the worms and the snake that tried to hurt me split to the sides

Reality has come home to intimidate me to be alone but I will fight for your happiness

When in your eyes wiping all the tears that you hold, they’ll have to go

the rain drops with  every bit of your soul and my sanity has gone numb

Wherein the lies you held on

I saw you spitting flowers into an ocean floor causing so much havoc in your sleep and Edger Allen Poe came out of his grave and screamed,”nothing but forever more!”

Everything erased off the earth in speckle light,the sun was unawakened to your brutal sermon and the witch that is burning into a bloody core,wishing she killed sailors down to the ocean floor

Move away from me I’m turning into another being before the moonlight shakes me down to my rotted soul and broken door.

What have you done? Who have you sung for? I’ll meet you once I’m there, Don’t worry you’re not dreaming

on saturday when I turned 26 I told myself just after a shower, I was like “you’re 26,you’re adult now. So no more hoodies :)

Everytime I near a birthday I always seem to think back: to my early twenties, my teens and waaay up to I can rememeber

its like Ingmar Bergman’s Wild Strawberries without the incest

The other day I had the urge to smoke blunts and watch porn,masturbation wasn’t on my mind 

just the first 2